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One of those days.

February 23, 2012 by Natalie · 14 Comments

I feel like I have so much I want to say, but I don’t know what it is. A simple “I am so sad right now” doesn’t seem enough, but it’s all that I can really seem to type. I’ve never been shy about my mental health, my problems, but sometimes it’s so scary to share that part of me with others.

I’d been doing so well the past couple of months, which then seems to make the fall that much harder. I’ve been dusting myself off and getting back up for the past 10 or so years, you’d think that I’d be used to it by now, but I’m not. I just feel more tired.

It’s hard to put into words what i’m feeling. Depressed, obviously. A failure? Of what, i’m not sure. Life maybe. When some of the most simple tasks to people is a huge deal for me. Like catching a bus. I feel stunted in so many ways. It’s amazing how I can be so full of life at times, but so scared to live.

I know it’s just another ‘rough patch’. That it’s probably the pain i’m in making everything else life throws at me harder. But right now, I just wish I had someone that would hold me & tell me that everything will be alright in the end.

Filed Under: Health ·

OOTD Failure & Sydney Storms.

February 22, 2012 by Natalie · 14 Comments

Today is not my day. You ever have one of those days when things just don’t go right. It’s not a bad day, it’s just one that you wish you spent in bed instead of doing everything else. I had to go have a CT scan on my foot, the X-Ray came back looking like it was fractured, but it wasn’t conclusive, so off to have a CT scan. My appointment was at 11:30. I got in at 1pm.

I wanted to try and take some pictures to show one of the ways I’ve been wearing the dress I got from Curvy is Beautiful (Also seen HERE), but it just didn’t work out for me. Taking photos on your own can be frustrating. Mr Frodo decided he had to stand and watch me, right in front of the camera. He wouldn’t budge.

Have to say, wearing the dress like this has been super cool for those hot days. I love that I can wrap it many ways. I also think it’d make an amazing dress to throw on over a swimming costume!

Also my hair was being mighty annoying. But I decided to share a few of the photos with you anyway, because well, today wasn’t my day, but I know we all have them. In the end, I sat down and cuddled Frodo. He’s one of those dogs that knows when someone is unwell, so he’s been very protective of me. I think he was looking at me a little like “Mum, just what do you think you are doing!?”.

I think you can see in this picture that i’ve had about 3 hours sleep in the past 24 hours! But how awesome is the print of this jacket I scored 2nd hand online for about $15. I’d also just tried on my LimeCrime lipgloss that arrived. Holy spaceballs batman, that is some amazing gloss! My roots are fading too, lavender colour just doesn’t seem to like my hair!

On another note, Sydney has been getting some pretty crazy storms. I took some footage of a storm we had the other night, it cut out our power and hit 2 of our neighbours trees and split them right down the middle. I missed Sydney storms when I was in Adelaide, they are beautifully fierce.

Filed Under: Curvy is Beautiful, OOTD ·

Union Jacks, Labyrinth & fat art, OH MY!

February 20, 2012 by Natalie · 11 Comments

I’m an emotional spender, it’s true, i’ll admit it. Excessive spending is one of the traits of Borderline Personality Disorder. In regards to some of the traits, I feel lucky that this is the one that I tend to have. Though i’d like to point out, i’m in no way a crazy excessive spender. I don’t own a credit card and I have no debts. But well, i’ve been emotional the past month and accumulated a stash of pretty things that I wanted to show off.

Ludo & Oliver Owl! Labyrinth is my all time favourite movie, when I was younger I used to think Sarah was stupid and that one day i’d marry the Goblin King. Hopefully i’m not the only one who looses hours on Etsy, but on one of those binges I stumbled across Peludossa. I snapped up a Ludo straight away! I’m going to buy a Chewbacca & Ewok over the next few months! My parents bought me home Oliver Owl (To add to my owl collection) last weekend. He’s from Windsor markets.

I’ve had a love of the UK since, hmm, around 1998. High school was the peak of this phase, I had so many things covered in the Union Jack. Some of that still pops out now and then. Mix a Union Jack, rhinestones and a bag together and it’s something I CANNOT refuse. Add to that a $10 voucher off. Come to Mummuh! I snapped this up from The Iconic. It’s by Niclaire.

The Bear Brooch is by The Triangle of Bears. I’d been eyeing her bear brooches for awhile, so when she had a half price sale I bought one. She’s based in Australia and makes some wonderful pieces. I also have a set of her leaf brooches. The ring is by Plastique & I bought it from Aussie store Emerg(in), they carry some gorgeous art & jewellery! The cat girl brooch is by one of my favourite artists Karolin Felix, check out her work, ITS AMAZING! And the badges, those badges. TEN is my Doctor. I couldn’t resist these! Another Australian seller, I bought these on the Bruce Loves You Etsy page, but you should also check out their site HERE.

A fellow fat, Australian Natalie is an amazing artist. I LOVE her work and own other postcards, stickers & a necklace by her. I love these postcards so much, i’ll be re-arranging my inspiration/happy board so I can fit them! Check out Natalies blog for more of her artwork.

So yep, that’s what I’ve snapped up! I’ve been enjoying shopping within Australia and supporting hand made craft items.

What was the last thing you bought?

Filed Under: Etsy, Fashion, Random! · Tagged With: Definatalie, Emerg(in), Etsy, The Iconic

New hair colour!

February 18, 2012 by Natalie · 18 Comments

While I love having the purple hair, I always feel like pink in my ‘natural’ colour. I decided I needed a little bit of a change, so I went on ebay to look around at what other hair dyes were available. I have a mixture of different brands I use. Fudge, Manic Panic & Special Effects are my main go to for bright colours. This time, I went for a new brand!

La Riche Directions! It’s always a little nerve racking trying a new dye. I’d heard good things about the brand, but i’m so used to the other brands I use, it’s like starting a new relationship. Luckily as you can see, we are getting along well. I picked mine up on ebay from the UK, each tub was about $6 including postage. The 2 stores i’ve found that had it in Australia both wanted over $20 (not including postage!). Thanks ebay!

I’ve been wanting to try rainbow hair, but while I collect up all the colours needed, I thought i’d try 4 different ones to see how I go with the dying process. I’ve only ever done 3 colours max before. The bottom layer is Neon Blue, followed by Lagoon Blue. The top layer goes from lavender at my roots to flamingo pink.

The dye seems good so far, it’s been a week and i’ve washed it twice and I haven’t lost too much colour. I found this colour runs when you apply it more then other dyes, but as long as you are aware of that, it’s not much of a problem.