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Mental Health – My thoughts on 13 Reasons Why

Trigger Warning – This post talks about Mental Health, Suicide, Self Harming and other similar topics.

Like so many other people, I was drawn into the Netflix series “13 Reasons Why“, based on the book by the same name. I binge watched the 13 episode series over 2 days and was warned by multiple people not to watch the last episode alone. I’ve seen a few facebook/twitter posts and read a few articles and I just wanted to touch on a few things. Share my opinion and my story.

Going into the TV show, I knew the basic premise. That it dealt with a suicide and high school students. Even if you didn’t know that before watching, you pick it up pretty quickly. The following episodes focus on Clay listening to a series of tapes left by Hannah explaining the downward spiral that led to her suicide.

Mental Health - My thoughts on 13 Reasons Why

It’s raw and rough to watch, but relatable. I am forever thankful I went to high school in a time before most social media took off. For me, it was emails and ICQ. High school was still a horrible experience for me, but I can only imagine how much worse it could have been. I share some of my thoughts on my high school years over here “Was high school really hell?

I’ve had mental health issues from an early age. I started councilling in Year 3, I started self-injuring in Year 7, I’ve attempted suicide and I’ve had a good friend, as well as a family member, die by suicide. Watching the show, I understood a lot of what Hannah was thinking.

A lot of people are saying that the last episode is too graphic. It isn’t right to show such a detailed suicide scene, that it glorifies suicide. This is the scene I was warned about, and to be honest, it didn’t shock me. You knew it was coming. Sure, you don’t expect to see such a scene in a TV show, but it’s suicide. It isn’t pretty and they didn’t paint it to be pretty. They showed the helplessness of it, the desperation of it, the commitment, the utter resignation that this is the best possible thing that can be done. Through the whole series, you see the aftermath of what this moment leaves behind, but in this last episode, you also witness the moments straight afterwards. The finding of the body, the shock and the heartbreak it causes. I think if anything, it shows suicide as it can be. Sure, it could give someone ideas, but it’s more likely to save someone’s life.

Mental Health - My thoughts on 13 Reasons Why

One thing that sat with me throughout the whole series was the tapes. I guess these are left as a sort of suicide note, a telling of her side of her story, of pointing fingers and trying to make sure that some people knew the truth. I’m not sure what her end goal of making them was, but I feel that a lot of it was very hurtful and selfish. Then again, suicide is both hurtful and selfish. I can honestly say that the main reason I am still here today is because of other people. I’ve felt and seen the hurt that suicide leaves behind. It’s horrendous. In saying that, she is a teenager, and hey, before my last attempt, I would have been very happy to have left a big “fuck you” in the form of similar tapes to a few people who propelled me into feeling that suicide was my best option.

I’ve also seen a few people saying that Hannah is over-dramatic. No. I can’t stop you for thinking that, but YOU never know what someone else is feeling. Everyone feels things differently. As someone who has BPD, I get this, for me, molehills ARE mountains. Hannah does actually have a lot of the BPD traits, and I find it interesting that mental health was never actually brought up at all in the series.

I think mental health and suicide needs to be talked about more, it’s one of those things that gets pushed aside, whispered in secret, swept under the rug. It shouldn’t, suicide is real and it’s something that a hell of a lot of people consider at some point in their life. I don’t know if it’s talked about more in schools these days, but it was never mentioned when I was there. My school counsellor had me talk to my parents because she wasn’t able to give me the help I needed, but I only visited the counsellor because my friends were worried and told my year advisor.

So yeah, those are my thoughts. It’s been awhile since I’ve sat down and talked through my thoughts and feelings on something, but this show left me feeling a lot of things.

Lifeline 13 11 14.
Suicide Call Back Service 1300 659 467.
Kids Helpline 1800 55 1800.
MensLine Australia 1300 78 99 78.

Have you watched the show? What did you think?

Concert! B*Witched, Atomic Kitten, S Club, East 17 & Liberty X!

Yesterday was a big day for me, but a brilliant one and I am so glad I pushed myself to do it all. In the early afternoon I went and visited my psych and then in the evening, my friend Mallory invited me to a concert. Now, that may not seem like much for most people, but it’s a lot for me. I ended up spending just over 4 hours on public transport. Oh, and the temperature reached 38°c.

Concert - Liberty X

The concert was a mishmash of early 2000 British music acts, so basically music I LOVED! In my early teens I loved British pop music and would buy Top of the Pops mags all the time. Of course, you probably know 5ive was my one true music love, but I adored so many artists the UK produced.

Concert - Liberty X

The first act was Liberty X, who I didn’t know much about, but I knew most of the songs once they got into it. It was a really great start with a lot of funky catchy music that had you grooving along. Gosh does that sentence make me sound old! Funky, groovy!

Concert - Liberty XConcert - East 17

East 17! Oh man, they were SO fun to watch! I remember really loving “House of Love” and “Alright” when I was younger and seeing them perform them was amazing! They pulled out some old school dance moves and totally rocked their whole set!

Concert - East 17

Concert - S Club

S Club was reduced from 3 to 2 last night as sadly Jo was in hospital in New Zealand after being sick and needing an operation. That being said, I actually think they may have been my favourite performance! They included the crowd, with Bradley getting down in the audience to have fans sign along. They really got into their dancing and honestly, their songs are just great fun, dance along songs that make you feel happy!

Concert - Atomic Kitten

Atomic Kitten! Liz has a fear of flying and so was replaced with Liberty X’s Michelle, and if you didn’t know the band, you wouldn’t have picked the difference. The ladies worked together so seamlessly. Kerry was hilarious and had me cracking up numerous times!

Concert - Atomic Kitten

Again, lots of upbeat dancing, with Kerry joking she was getting too old for it, plus she had broken the heel of her shoe on the way in. Their ballads were gorgeous, I got goosebumps when they performed ‘Whole Again’. I’d forgotten how much I loved that song.

Concert - B*Witched

Lastly was B*Witched, who sadly had to rush through their set and not get to talk too much because the venue wanted them out by 10:30. They were down to 3 members as Lindsay couldn’t make the tour. They performed all their hits as well as a few songs I didn’t know from their 2014 album. I was super happy to see them perform my favourite song, Blame it on the Weatherman. I actually have the CD single of it stashed away somewhere!

Concert - B*Witched

So all in all, I had a brilliant night! Though, I tell you what, my foot is killing me today! A huge thank you to Mallory, for letting me tag along and making my inner 16 year old squee in happiness. We had such amazing seats. Sorry for the dodgy photos, I only had my phone.

What act from your teen years would you love to see live?

VLOG – 2016 Anatolian Show

Oh hey! Sorry about the lack of updates this year, between my mental health and my foot (I’m back in my boot again) I’ve just been lacking in any inspiration. Sorry! I also decided this year to focus more on quality over quantity.

I did, however, decide to piece together some video footage from last years Anatolian show to share! I think you already know how much I love and adore this breed, but I thought this was a great way to show you a bit more of what they are like!