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Goodbye Tonka

This is so hard to write. So so so hard. Last night, on Mothers Day, I made the hard decision to have my little man put to sleep. It was heartbreaking, and to say I’m absolutely gutted is an understatement.

12/08/2010 – 14/05/2017

If you follow the blog on facebook or Instagram, you’ll know that Tonka has been unwell. Just over a month ago, we took him for some tests as he was losing weight and vomiting more than normal. We were thinking maybe thyroid issues or diabetes. What it confirmed was unexpected. Kidney disease.

He spent a few days at the vets, on fluids, started on a new diet and medication. The fluids helped a bit, but after a long talk with our vet, the hard truth was that she suspected that if he lasted 6 months, he’d be lucky. He was still acting like his normal self and we decided we’d just make the rest of his life super happy.

The rate at which he deteriorated was drastic. We only found out a month ago and with how he was, we were optimistic that we’d get those 6 months. Even until his last day he was eating SO much. Sadly, over this last month, he’d lost so much weight. I’d never been so knowledgeable about a cat skeleton then I was just from patting him.

The decline was daily and on Friday, I ended up booking him in for next Saturday to see his Vet. I was thinking it may be his time then but was going to see what Claire thought. On Saturday, I rang and changed that appointment to Claires next available, which was Tuesday. Sunday came, Mothers Day, and by 8pm, I wasn’t sure he’d make it to the vets opening in 12 hours. So I made the decision to take him to the AEC.

I had slept with him in my arms, as he so often did, and spent a bit of the day in bed with him. He’d been super clingy. So much so that when I went and had a bath, he sat on me the whole time. He had a whole lot of his favourite food, tinned tuna, some ham, and what I call ‘kitty crack sticks‘. He’d stopped eating and drinking by the afternoon, and was all twitchy, finding it hard to walk. You could see in his eyes he was done, he was just tired, drained and uncomfortable.

I feel so blessed to have had Tonka in my life. I had expected it to be for a lot, lot longer, but the time we shared was special. He was an amazing cat and he charmed so many people. Even people who didn’t like cats warmed up to Tonky. He was loud and opinionated, but loving and clinging. He was well travelled, having flown more than some humans. Sydney to Melbourne, Melbourne to Sydney and then Sydney to Melbourne again.

You can read the blog and watch the vlog about the day I adopted him here.

I love you Tonka, so much and I will miss you more than I can express. I know you are at peace now and will be snuggling away with Mr Frodo.


Answer This… Cats or Dogs?


 Ahh, the age old question, cats or dogs? To be honest, it’s hands down DOGS for me! I do however love all animals & currently only own a cat!  If I had my way, I’d have a dog, and hopefully it’s on the cards for this year, but I do love my cat.


I got my first dog when I was around 6 and apart from the last year, have always had at least one dog. My first dog was an Aussie Silky called Billy, then there was an Aussie Silky x Maltese named Prince. Frodo was my 3rd dog, and then I got Ginny (who lives with my ex). Throughout that time, my parents (who I often lived with) have had dogs too, and currently have 2 Cavalier King Charles rescues Betsy and Aussie.

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Health and Happenings!


 No, my cabinet isn’t set up like that. I just wanted to take a photo of the photobook I made of Mr Frodo & thought I’d put his urn (him?) in the picture. I laugh when I see the look Tonka is giving in the background. To be honest, his urn is in a material bag, in a paper bag, on the floor between my chest of drawers and bookcase. I decided I wanted to do a photobook ages ago, but snapfish had a half price sale on recently. You get 20 pages with the book and you can add in extra. This one was 44 pages. It’s hard fitting in so many years of life into one book. Can you believe he’s been gone 6 months now?

I miss having a dog. I REALLY miss having a dog. I don’t really remember a time when I didn’t have a dog. It’s not something that I can do right now. If I move to Melbourne later this year, it will be even more harder moving with a dog and finding a place to rent. I would have done it if Frodo was still alive, but right now, it doesn’t seem practical. My man friend and I talk often about getting a dog together, I search the rescue sites and that, but we have our heart set on an Anatolian.


I’ve been working on my health lately. It’s hard. Really hard. I think that’s partially why OOTD have been lacking. My mental health is doing okay, but my actual health is something I’ve been putting off for, well, ages. I have polycystic ovaries, and I have diabetes. I knew what my main problem was, and that was that I didn’t eat ENOUGH. I usually only ate one meal a day, and that’s not healthy. So i’ve made the effort to eat at least 3 meals a day, and be a hell of a lot more consious of what i’m putting IN my body. I’ve cut down on fizzy drink, so much so that I went through withdrawels resulting in daily headaches.

I went to the doctors on Monday to have a set of blood tests (to make sure that those headaches weren’t something more sinister & check my sugar) & I got all worried when I was rung & asked to come back in the clinic. I’m doing well. All my tests result came back improved from the test I have 3 months ago. Everything has dropped between 1 to 3 numbers. My doctor was so excited and really proud of me. I’m really proud of me. 

Above – Glasses c/o Select Specs (I love them!) | Earrings – ASOS