No, my cabinet isn’t set up like that. I just wanted to take a photo of the photobook I made of Mr Frodo & thought I’d put his urn (him?) in the picture. I laugh when I see the look Tonka is giving in the background. To be honest, his urn is in a material bag, in a paper bag, on the floor between my chest of drawers and bookcase. I decided I wanted to do a photobook ages ago, but snapfish had a half price sale on recently. You get 20 pages with the book and you can add in extra. This one was 44 pages. It’s hard fitting in so many years of life into one book. Can you believe he’s been gone 6 months now?
I miss having a dog. I REALLY miss having a dog. I don’t really remember a time when I didn’t have a dog. It’s not something that I can do right now. If I move to Melbourne later this year, it will be even more harder moving with a dog and finding a place to rent. I would have done it if Frodo was still alive, but right now, it doesn’t seem practical. My boyfriend and I talk often about getting a dog together, I search the rescue sites and that, but we have our heart set on an Anatolian.
I’ve been working on my health lately. It’s hard. Really hard. I think that’s partially why OOTD have been lacking. My mental health is doing okay, but my actual health is something I’ve been putting off for, well, ages. I have polycystic ovaries, and I have diabetes. I knew what my main problem was, and that was that I didn’t eat ENOUGH. I usually only ate one meal a day, and that’s not healthy. So i’ve made the effort to eat at least 3 meals a day, and be a hell of a lot more consious of what i’m putting IN my body. I’ve cut down on fizzy drink, so much so that I went through withdrawels resulting in daily headaches.
I went to the doctors on Monday to have a set of blood tests (to make sure that those headaches weren’t something more sinister & check my sugar) & I got all worried when I was rung & asked to come back in the clinic. I’m doing well. All my tests result came back improved from the test I have 3 months ago. Everything has dropped between 1 to 3 numbers. My doctor was so excited and really proud of me. I’m really proud of me.
It’s been awhile since I shared some love of my fur babies here. I’m still missing Mr Frodo terribly, I had moments where I will break down and cry just from the heart break, but I also know thats not what he would have wanted. Tonka fretted for a while, went off his food, was very lost, but he’s back to his old self again now.
He loves going and playing with my parents dogs though. I’m sure he thinks of himself as a dog. He used to have a toy foam red nose that he LOVED, that was until Aussie tore it up. I went on ebay and bought him a few new ones & he’s been SO happy. He walks around with them in his mouth, and will drop them in front of you so you can throw it for him. Yep, he plays fetch.
I’ve been hit with a wave of depression. It’s been a while since I’ve been down, my mental health has been pretty good as of late, but these past few days have had me pretty down. I’ve been feeling a little under the weather, so I’m not sure if that is what is making me extra sooky.
I miss my boyfriend. I miss Melbourne, I miss the freedom I have there. I can get out and do things. My anxiety gets the better of me when it comes to Sydney public transport. I wish I could move to Melbourne tomorrow. If I had the money, I’d rent THIS place, but alas, I couldn’t afford it on my own. It’s still cheaper then trying to rent in Sydney!
It’s times like this that I miss Frodo even more. He was always my rock, I love love love Tonka, but there is a big difference between a cat and a dog. Tonka is doing his best though, and I never knew a cat could be so clingy! He’s taken to sleeping in my arms, being held/hugged, and I often wake up with him asleep ON me. I don’t know how he manages to do get positioned without waking me up! Ninja cat!
IMAGES - 1. One of my roses. 2. Yep, I caved and bought myself some new Black Milk, outfit coming up soon! 3. My man & I. 4. Tonka, sniffing my eye. This was the day after I got home from spending 2 weeks in Melbourne, he had to make sure it really was me. 5. Tonka loves cushions as much as I do. 6. Playing around with fonts.
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