Fashion, Outfits

Outfit – Pin Up Girl Clothing #ccr2015

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Trying to decide what to wear for Curvy Couture Roadshow this year was hard. I wanted something a bit more night time friendly, and to out do last years outfit (A crop top & pencil skirt was pretty scary at first!) Then I came across this print on the Pin Up Girl website, and I knew I’d found THE dress!

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It was slightly outside of my comfort zone. I don’t often like showing off my arms, and I wasn’t sure this style of dress would suit me, but I decided to throw caution to the wind. I mean, I was going to be surrounded by awesome fashionable plus size ladies! If I could wear this dress anywhere, it would be to CCR!

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I’d never ordered from Pin Up Girl clothing, so asked my friends in a facebook group who are devout PUG ladies, and decided that even though my waist measurement was slightly out of the size chart, I’d go for the 3xl. The fit was perfect! Although the site says no stretch there is a little bit of room.

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I can’t wait to get frocked up again and take some more pictures in this! Thanks to Suger for taking these photos for me at CCR!

Dress – c/o PinUp Girl Clothing | Headband – ASOS years ago | Shoes – Target

Fashion, Outfits

Review – Autograph The Secret Bootleg Jean

* This item was gifted to me for review. All thoughts and opinions are my own.

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Pants and I, well, we don’t really get along. My body shape tends to be a bit of a apple/rectangle and finding any pants that look good is hard. Since moving to Melbourne, i’ve been trying to find the perfect pants to help keep me warm in the cold winter. I’ve found a few I don’t mind, but I think I found the jackpot with these Autograph ‘The Secret’ boot leg jeans!!

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When Autograph contacted me and asked if I’d like to try a pair of their new jeans, I decided to say yes. I was a little skeptical (due to my pants aversion) but decided to try the bootleg style (I usually go for skinny jeans). When they arrived, and I tried them on, I was pretty pleased, but I knew they had to be tested. The thing with a lot of jeans is, that after wearing them a few hours, they lose their elasticity and become baggy. These pictures were taken after wearing them about 20 hours all up, and while you can see they have loosened up a little at the thigh, it’s stayed in shape everywhere else!

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SIZING: I know previously with Autograph that I have to size down, so I looked at the sizing chart and ordered the Size 18 in short. They fit great, maybe a little snug, but don’t make me muffin-top too badly. The jeans have Secret hidden ‘reinforced panels to support and hold tummy area & bottom shaping construction’. Honestly, they don’t really show much difference to my flat butt, but they make it feel great!

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In action! I wore them to the Curvy Couture Roadshow breakfast, Oh hai Suger and Liv!

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So, all in all, I love them! I was gifted another pair to try out but I haven’t given them a go yet as these have been my go to jeans. Whoops! So be sure to check them out for yourself!

Autograph currently have 2 pairs of jeans for $99!

 

Personal

When all you want in life is a dog

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Hi my name is Natalie, i’m 28, a Gemini, I love shoes and things that sparkle, cool weather, swimming and all animals. I have a few mental health issues and all I want in life is a dog.

I can’t really complain though. While my head makes life and living it hard, I have a roof over my head (I love this house), food, enough money to see a good psych fortnightly, friends, and a super loving and supportive family. I should be golden, but I still feel like something is missing. That missing piece is a dog.

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I’ve had at least one dog ever since I can remember. All my life, i’ve had a canine companion, up until Frodo passed away 15 months ago (I remember things like this, 6 years since my miscarriage, 5 years since my niece died, 4 years since my nan died). At first, I couldn’t imagine getting another dog, I was distraught. I had to deal with living in a Frodoless world.

Frodo was my world, and I’m about 80% sure I wouldn’t be alive today if it wasn’t for him. I got him when I was around 15 and in one of my most fragile stages. He was my rock. I had anxiety plans built around him from my Councillors. To this day, when I panic, my thoughts go straight to ‘I want to go home, to my bed, to my dog’. The first few times this happened after Frodo passed was hard, I’d get to the ‘to my dog’ part and panic harder. I no longer had a dog.

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I raised him to be a pretty good dog and I was so proud of him. Some days he’d do something and I’d think my heart would burst from love. This was what people must feel when they have kids, this crazy emotional, love. When he was sick, I would be like a distraught Mother. When he had his operation on his knee, I’d carry him around, stand next to him so he could pee. When he nearly died from a bowel obtrusion, I did everything I could do to help him. I knew the day before he passed that that was the last night I was going to spend with him. When he passed away, it was in my arms with me telling him he was the greatest and best dog ever. In my heart, he always will be.

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I’m not having children, even when I was younger growing up, I never wanted them. I’d always said I’d adopt. Sadly, I can’t adopt. I have issues that would make it hard to concieve and to carry full term and I would not want anyone to grow up with a head anything like mine. So yes, I did see Frodo, I do see Tonka, like my children. A child, that someone who had trouble getting out of bed somedays could have. A child who never judged me if I didn’t leave the house for a week, or a fortnight. Who would willingly give me cuddles and make me happier just by being in the room. Who would encourage me to get out of bed, to feed them, to take them outside. Who made me keep living. It’s something my Psych and I have been discussing over and over.

The thing is, if I was having a child, I wouldn’t have to ask the landlord for permission.

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Frodo is always watching over me, this HUGE picture looks over my bed.

 I was offered to adopt a dog recently. The most perfect dog for me. A dream dog. But the landlord came back with a no. While my rational brain can accept it, it was a big ask, they are scared their property will be damaged, the other part of my brain is devastated. I’d be the best dog parent, I wouldn’t let it do damage and if it did, I’d pay every cent. I can’t stop crying (oh hey, a nose bleed) and I just can’t understand why I try and be the best person I can be, and it always seems that I come in last. I’d do anything legal and not morally questionable to just have this. It still feels like my heart is broken.

I know it may sound trivial to some. And hey, it just may be. But in a world so crazy, if something as simple as having a dog can make my life a better place, can quiet my head, can encourage me to get up in the morning, then I will strive for it. I just wish it was now. I’m not asking for the world. A million dollars. Diamonds. Expensive pairs of shoes. All I want in life is a dog, and I can’t have it.

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